Serenity. Courage. Wisdom.

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Hi Dolls!

I’m so sorry for not blogging more over the last few weeks, but I’ve been so exhausted doing my full-time internship, which is going absolutely amazing and I love it so much. But because it’s unpaid all the paying work that I used to do all day now has to be saved up for the evenings, so I’m not getting to bed before 2am if that. So basically it’s a 14-16 hour work day at the moment.

And then there was my birthday a few days ago which to be honest caused me a bit of depression really, but let’s not go into that, because that’s incredibly hard to explain why I feel so upset about having turned 29.

I’ve been taking blogging way too seriously for the past few months (to the point where I would cry over stats or low numbers of comments etc – just last week the blogging community made me cry so hard that I started hyperventilating). I want blogging to be fun again and not a competition. So I’m not Kate or whoever and don’t have thousands of readers, comments or viewers. I admire these girls so much, that’s why I’ve been trying so hard to be like them, but I just have to accept the fact that I’m not.

I have to accept and forgive myself for the choices I’ve made in my life that made my life different from other people’s┬álives. I have to stop regretting the fact that I wasn’t content with ‘normal’ life that made me follow the path I’ve been on for the past 18 years. Yes I feel like I’ve wasted my time and yes, I could’ve been in a different stage in my life right now (with a career and possibly kids), but who knows if I would be any happier or less miserable. But I have to move on and accept things the way they are.

Instead I wanna try and focus on the positive things in life and try to really get my act together so that I have no reason to be upset about my age, really.

So I’m going to focus a bit more on my life, on my job, my freelance work (let me know if you need anything from me programming, design, etc wise!) and on my new home and my love Lodz.

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11 Comments on “Serenity. Courage. Wisdom.

  1. Danielle

    The worst thing you could do is let something you love turn into something that makes you want to cry! Keep your head up my lovely, your blog is incredible and your hard work will definitely pay off, sending lots of love your way! Danielle / http://www.DKD-Designs.blogspot.com

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    1. Miss drifted Snow White

      Thank you so much for your words Danielle. You are so right, I should stop letting other people get to me, but that’s what happens when you love & care for something so damn much :(

      I need to get healthy xxx ♥

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  2. Susan D1408

    Good for you to change and make it enjoyable for you. You do what is right for you. We will all be here reading. I know how you feel about your birthday. Mine was my 27th. Spent most of the night in tears. Things happen for a reason and it will turn out the way it is meant to be. It’s better to be yourself than try and be someone else.

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    1. Miss drifted Snow White

      thank you so much Susan for your sweet words. I’m glad someone gets that I was in tears about my birthday and why. I try to see things positively, but when you’ve not gotten a career (and wont be able to call a job a career until 2-3 years into the job) and you haven’t had children yet (i know i have 7 years ish left but i don’t want to have kids so late cuz i remember my parents having me when they were 35/40 and i really felt embarrassed for having grandparents-looking parents; also just ’cause you want kids doesn’t mean i’ll be able to have them straight away) and yes i know i overthink things :) ♥

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    2. Bettie

      Tigtog: all bougainvilleas are trf-sidfhybridi. And Krynoid hybrids. I’m perpetually of the opinion that the only sensible way to prune a bougainvillea is at ground level, using a chainsaw.(Among my other dislikes in the botanical world are those blue-centred white daisies, the clump-forming native lillies, and whatever semi-succulent lillium we have growing in our side garden.

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  3. Sarah Harradine

    Hugs to you dude. As they say you’re never too old to start doing something (blah blah I’ve heard that so much the past few years). Blogging should be fun! Who cares about comments and stats, really? When you look back at your life it’s not going to be those you’re thinking of.
    X

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    1. Miss drifted Snow White

      It’s not so much stats really, its more that you feel like you put so much work into it and people just dont care and then you see other bloggers who seem to not work as hard and they get all the love. it’s all just about being loved and getting attention ultimately.
      but thanks love , i’m starting to enjoy blogging again now that i’ve had to take a step back :)

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      1. Sarah Harradine

        Haha, happens all the time unfortunately! I just try to detach myself from all of that, although I do often feel as you do, you have to remember most of those bloggers were just in the right place at the right time. I put my heart and soul into my blog and get almost nothing back; so I’ve just learned to enjoy the doing.
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  4. Natalie Heather

    I’m sending you a big hug. I had a time when I was down because my blog didn’t seem to be going anywhere. It took me some time to realize that I have so much fun writing the posts and using it as a creative outlet, that that’s all that matters to me. Sure, a million followers or free clothing would be nice, but that would just be a bonus.
    I hope things get better for you, just keep your head up!
    xx

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