I owe you an apology. Like a massive one. I haven’t properly been blogging for while and you lovely people who grace me with their time, consideration and subscription deserve an answer! And it’s ridiculous that it’s taken me so long to realise. Tut tut to myself!
So here it goes.
The reason why I haven’t been able to properly spend time writing up reviews and rather doing them on my youtube channel is because I have loads of crap going in my work and private life.
I’m sure you guys understand the difficulties of studying whilst working full-time? I’ve been working on a dissertation that is worth 10% of my entire degree and if I fail this disso, I have to retake an entire year and would be set back by another year (I had to take a year out after 2nd year because of some private stuff).
At the moment, I work 8-9 hours a day and work on my paper until 2am. I barely eat and if I do eat, I eat crap.
I also have lots of upsetting stuff going on at work (a la crying upsetting), so I have lots of stuff going on in my head questioning myself and my future and stuff. Like full on, what am I gonna be when I grow up at the age of 27. I always knew who I wanted to be and was convinced that I was gonna be brilliant at it too, but throughout the last year, I had to realise that I was very wrong about that and now my world is kinda upside down.
Make Up is may haven. And I love the fact that you guys read my posts and watch my videos and comment and all of that and I massively appreciate companies believing me and sending me products so I can share my thoughts on them with you. But at the moment, nothing holds my attention other than my paper and anything else has just lost its appeal right now. And videos are the only way forward for me right now, as they only take like 10minutes each.
The last factor that plays into my silence and lack of quality posts is that I’m desperately saving up for my final uni year. Ridiculously I will have to pay £470/month for a nice room including near campus (my university is unfortunately right in the city centre of a large city so if I want to live cheap, I’d have to live miles away and be bound to public transport, which wouldn’t help keeping the costs down). I’m paying the same amount right now for rent + bills, but I’m earning a lot of money too. Yes, I will get student fundings from Germany and the UK and loan and grant and whatnot. But I don’t trust the system. I never have and never will. So I wanna make sure that I have money put aside so I can at least pay my rent, which basically means that I barely have any money left for myself each month. Again, I’m pretty sure you can understand that.
So I cant go and buy the high-end stuff to test and review and because the blog is not big enough, I obviously have no right to receive those for review purposes, which is absolutely fine.
But at least you now know why I’ve been so quiet and why my posts, when I post, lack of quality.
And I’m sorry that this went all super personal. I’m sorry if you think I’ve shared too much, or if you think I’m a saddo. I just wanted to explain…
Miss drifted Snow White.
PS – I’m getting a 2 weeks break across Easter/Royal Wedding/Bank Holiday and I got a surprise planned!