Apr8

All Apologies: I suck

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I owe you an apology. Like a massive one. I haven’t properly been blogging for while and you lovely people who grace me with their time, consideration and subscription deserve an answer! And it’s ridiculous that it’s taken me so long to realise. Tut tut to myself!

So here it goes.

The reason why I haven’t been able to properly spend time writing up reviews and rather doing them on my youtube channel is because I have loads of crap going in my work and private life.

I’m sure you guys understand the difficulties of studying whilst working full-time? I’ve been working on a dissertation that is worth 10% of my entire degree and if I fail this disso, I have to retake an entire year and would be set back by another year (I had to take a year out after 2nd year because of some private stuff).

At the moment, I work 8-9 hours a day and work on my paper until 2am. I barely eat and if I do eat, I eat crap.

I also have lots of upsetting stuff going on at work (a la crying upsetting), so I have lots of stuff going on in my head questioning myself and my future and stuff. Like full on, what am I gonna be when I grow up at the age of 27. I always knew who I wanted to be and was convinced that I was gonna be brilliant at it too, but throughout the last year, I had to realise that I was very wrong about that and now my world is kinda upside down.

Make Up is may haven. And I love the fact that you guys read my posts and watch my videos and comment and all of that and I massively appreciate companies believing me and sending me products so I can share my thoughts on them with you. But at the moment, nothing holds my attention other than my paper and anything else has just lost its appeal right now. And videos are the only way forward for me right now, as they only take like 10minutes each.

The last factor that plays into my silence and lack of quality posts is that I’m desperately saving up for my final uni year. Ridiculously I will have to pay £470/month for a nice room including near campus (my university is unfortunately right in the city centre of a large city so if I want to live cheap, I’d have to live miles away and be bound to public transport, which wouldn’t help keeping the costs down). I’m paying the same amount right now for rent + bills, but I’m earning a lot of money too. Yes, I will get student fundings from Germany and the UK and loan and grant and whatnot. But I don’t trust the system. I never have and never will. So I wanna make sure that I have money put aside so I can at least pay my rent, which basically means that I barely have any money left for myself each month. Again, I’m pretty sure you can understand that.

So I cant go and buy the high-end stuff to test and review and because the blog is not big enough, I obviously have no right to receive those for review purposes, which is absolutely fine.

But at least you now know why I’ve been so quiet and why my posts, when I post, lack of quality.

And I’m sorry that this went all super personal. I’m sorry if you think I’ve shared too much, or if you think I’m a saddo. I just wanted to explain…

Much love,
Miss drifted Snow White.

PS – I’m getting a 2 weeks break across Easter/Royal Wedding/Bank Holiday and I got a surprise planned!

Maria xoxo
  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/06378560785114125772 Ms Bubu

    Hello!Your post remind me of some career crisis I had in the past few years. So I can say it is alright for you to take some time off blogging and thinking about your future and put your energy there. I do hope you'll feel better soon though!Sending positive vibes your way!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/14466371439371326081 DalaLuz

    As far as I am concerned, no need for apologies! Life is like that, it needs attention :-) Hooray for Bloglovin' that keeps track of your blog for me, whether you post daily, weekly or bi-annually ;-) Even if my life takes me away from reading up on all these lovely blogs that you lovely bloggers are putting together for us with so much care, time and love. It happens! Focus on what needs focussing and don't deny yourself some empty time, I find those are more important than thinking when it comes to sorting out your head! And when you feel the urge again, BHAM, you can share with us all your precious finds on how to look fab after pulling an all-nighter, a quest into stash long forgotten but newly loved and who knows… perhaps even how to rock the frazzled complete melt-down look ;-) Hey, I am one of your readers who can't afford high-end stuff anyway, and so much beauty is free :-) Wishing you loads of succes in your endeavours and looking forward for your posts once the time is there!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/17885914978563500767 Mia

    Hi there,I may new here as I just follow your blog few months ago..I pity you for having such a lot of work and this does give me some lessons that everyone works hard in their and that absolutely have to include me.thanks for make me realizing this..anyway,take care of your health and not need to apologize.we understand what your problems are..Wait for your comeback soon!Good luck!

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/15310975964117373260 TheRumour

    Hello!There really is no need to apologise. Anyone who truly appreciates your blog, and you as a person, wouldn't be so harsh as to find something as trivial as keeping your blog up to date with your youtube channel a problem.I can sympathise having had this crisis when I was 23. I was working in a job and was not able to progress in the way I wanted so I decided to do a degree instead. I'm in my final year now and literally finished my 12,000 word dissertation (which is worth 40% of my third year mark) two weeks ago. I'm studying history so I'm not going to be qualified for anything specifically but its my hope that I can build my own youtube channel alongside working and writing some historical articles and the like. You'll find your way eventually and feel settled. Good on you for working so hard too. Don't be so hard on yourself, focus on you!! =)

  • http://www.blogger.com/profile/17194962677615171028 Georgia

    Don't worry about what we will think. if you need to take time out of doing blogs then do it. I know if all I was concentrating on was work and uni I wouldn't want to, in the little spare time I would have, be writing on the p.c. xxx

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