Outfit • I Really Don’t Fit In

Outfit I really dont fit in (1)Outfit I really dont fit in (2)

Jumper: Glamorous * // Disco Pants: Boohoo // Shoes: New Look // Blazer: Vintage

When I look at fashion bloggers’ outfit posts I always feel like crying because I’m not just skin and bones and I don’t have a million miles long legs. I just never feel like I fit in. I’m super disproportional, my legs and arms being too short, my upper body too long and my forehead and head in general just being too big for the rest of my body. My hair is not long enough. I have short, stubby legs with nobly knees and way too fat calves (and I know I do, ’cause it’s super uber rare for me to find boots that zip upI just feel fugly.

You know when you put on some clothes and you think ‘yes, I like this, I feel confident and good looking’ and then you look at pictures and you’re like WHAT THE F*CK WAS I THINKING?! That. That’s me every time I look at pictures of myself.

I wish I could be skinnier. Like about a stone lighter. And I’ve trying my best to do the 5:2 diet combined with the 30 day shred, but I think even if I lost the weight that I want to lose, I still would never look at myself the way I look at other girls, mainly because I feel like a little, hideous bumble bee compared to them.

I’m sorry that I don’t have happy thoughts to share at the moment, but I guess I just wanna be honest with you guys. This is how I feel and I think sharing this sometimes really helps or at least so I hope. I’m sorry for being such a buzz kill.

On a positive note, I’ve finally learnt how to curl my hair with straighteners! Hurrah. Small victories.

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24 Comments on “Outfit • I Really Don’t Fit In

  1. www.laralizard.blogspot.com

    That happens to me too.. (Put on clothes: YAY, see pics: WTH D: !!).. I guess the way is just to accept ourselves with all our personal features that I will not even call “flaws” since they are not really flaws.. who actually tells how a person should look like, anyway?
    It doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t try to improve, just that we don’t need to worry over something we cannot change, or something that would take some inhuman effort to change.

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    1. Miss drifted Snow White

      im sort of glad to hear that im not the only one going through this. i know that im sometimes being silly, but i guess being in the blogging scene its really not easy to deal with the fact that most bloggers are like 7 stones LOL

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  2. Chelsea

    Don’t be so harsh on yourself, you look amazing! That jumpers right up my street :)
    Plus… I’m so jealous about the hair straighteners I’m all fingers and thumbs when it comes to mine :( xxxx

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  3. Ally // Digital Diva

    I think your thoughts are exactly the same as a lot of us – one of the reasons I’ve been liking doing the ‘What I Wore Today’ website is because I’m forcing myself to be ok looking at photos of myself. It’s working! The more I do it, the more I learn what smile to pull, what angle to use etc. — it’s all about that, no other fashion blogger looks that good in real life, it’s all “us at our best”.

    I’m a size 14 and I would love to get back to the size 10 I was a few years back. I’m learning to love what I look like whatever though – I’m pretty certain blogging and WIWT is helping :-)

    To end….you’re a hella beautiful lady with awesome hair, killer cheekbones and a lovely honesty that will mean you are always loved xx

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  4. Lisa

    I’m neither in the blogging scene nor a person that gives too much attention to fashion, however, Maria I think what you’re doing here is a great job. It is what real girls are looking for. Looking at someone who is firstly more like them rather than a model and secondly someone who know how to pull off looks although you do not have ‘the perfect size and shape’.

    Well, who really Has? Who really is the right size, has perfect proportions and always looks spot on perfect when leaving the house? And who is in the position to say what the ‘right size and shape’ is? No one!

    I tell you why I read your blog, although, as I said, I’m not too much fussed about fashion, style and beauty. It is because a) I think you’re a good friend and I’m impressed by how you pull this off on your own within a world I have always considered harsh judging and b) exactly because you are not the next Bar Refaeli or Giselle Bundchen, who to be fair just look like all other models, thin, blonde, tanned and as if they cannot enjoy food. You on the other hand have personality, and I know that, I’ve seen and heard it more than once! And from what I know, this is what makes a person good looking. You and your fiery red hair, which looks great in whatever way you style it. You and your massive heels that are just you. Imagine being 5”10 and not being able to wear those because you’d be over-towering Craig.

    You are great Maria, you look absolutely lovely and that combined with your confidence makes you a great person! I think you should remember that, because the people around you do!

    xxx

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    1. Miss drifted Snow White

      This world is harsh judging – but the biggest critic of myself is me. It’s not even so much that I want to be model size/proportion and I know that others aren’t either, but when you look at other fashion bloggers they are all stick figures.

      It’s so frustrating when you try on clothes that you’ve seen on someone else who is meant to be a ‘real person’ and then nothing fits cuz youre a foot shorter and about twice the size.

      I mean look at me, I don’t look like a size 8/10. I’d have to be a size 6 to look proportional :(

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  5. Anna Pomfret

    You know what? I looked at the top photo and thought, wow, she looks great, i’d never look that good in that outfit! I think we are always the worst critics of ourselves. I hope you are feeling better about everything soon, a light will appear at the end of the tunnel.

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  6. Style Revival

    Hi maria, it might make you feel better to know that there are lots of us ladies out there who know how you feel. Like you, i’ve also battled mental health and self-image issues.

    As I am definitely in the category of mature bloggers (I’m 41) I can speak from experience and say that society defines beauty as “skinny” so those of us that aren’t a size 8 usually feel ‘less than’. I still have daily conversations with myself in front of the mirror that go “you don’t look too bad, don’t be too hard on yourself, so what if you’re not a size 10?” and i try hard to accept how I look because I know there’s lots of people out there who really struggle with weight/image issues and I should be grateful for what I have and being healthy.

    So… here’s my advice for what its worth. Try not to waste your fantastic 20′s worrying about not being “perfect” – you’re a beautiful young talented woman with people that love you. Try and make that enough. Keep up the great blogging! xx

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    1. Miss drifted Snow White

      Funny thing is that I AM a size 8! But i just don’t look it cuz im so disproportional. I think my biggest issues are things about me that I can’t do anything about. Like my short limbs – I can lose all the weight I want (I did before when I was anorexic) and I still didn’t look proportional – I would have to be a size 6 a la Kavita from SheWearsFashion.com to look proportional – she’s exactly my height but about a stone lighter than me.

      But thank you so much for your lovely thoughts xxxx

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  7. disqus_Q2oE0p4dBH

    You’re not fugly, you’re beautiful and i love your hair! I just came across your blog and read you bio – interesting and so is your blog :). And i understand how you feel about doing unpaid internships :( I’ve been doing them since last year!
    Read my blog?
    [email protected]
    x

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    1. Miss drifted Snow White

      thank you so much for your comment, i really really appreciate it! i really hope that i can avoid unpaid internships from now on. very degrading when you’re 29 and you’ve got 5+ years of experience!

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  8. Andra Dorolti

    Trust me, I totally agree with what you said! I feel the same way. I take pictures of myself for my blog..and then I look at them and think….damn! why can’t I be skinnier?
    But you know what? I believe it’s very important to stand out and be beautiful the way you are. Of course we can improve ourselves, and loose a few pounds.. but until then, we should enjoy our body.. it’s our body :)

    You’re a cute girl and you’re doing something really nice here! I hope it was just a feeling you had when writing this, and I hope it went away! :)

    Keep up the good work!

    Andra
    http://www.andradorolti.com/

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  9. Ellan

    You probably get this a lot… but I am genuinely perplexed by your blog! By no exaggeration it is like reading about my own life, in the past two years I’ve been through all sorts of illnesses similar to yours and it’s uplifting just to know someone else is going through that as well :) This post in particular… I avoid posting style posts that I actually feature in because I’m like ‘well it looked great in theory and on me terrible!’
    Also the moment you learn to curl your hair with straighteners (which for me was about two months ago) is life changing haha.
    Brilliant blog, so glad I found it :)
    Ellan xx
    http://ellansavage.blogspot.com

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    1. Miss drifted Snow White

      Awww Ellan thank you so so so much for your sweet, sweet words. It makes my heart smile to hear that you’re going through the same thing and that I’m not on my own and that my talking about my issues can even help you :) I do have to say posting outfit pictures is terrifying and it makes me feel like crying every time I look at them and then at pictures of other bloggers, but then I get comments like yours and it makes me feel soooo happy :) maybe give it a go? checking out your blog now :)

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