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Reflections. Getting closer and closer to 2013 has made me reflect on the things that I’ve seen and got to experience this year like the Paralympics, where I got to witness people overcoming hardship and bodily disadvantages and soar to heights I can’t begin to imagine.

And this, today, made me think.

I hate my legs. Hate doesn’t even cut it. At the most extreme times when I was suffering from depression I cut myself. But in contrast to a lot of other cutters who choose to cut their arms as a subconscious cry for help, I cut my legs, because I knew I’d never really show them to anyone.

I know I have a tiny waist and a good size rack and I wouldn’t say I’m ugly either. I have a long list of ‘conquests’ to show that I’m desirable at least.

And yet I don’t feel feminine. I don’t feel sexy. I don’t feel comfortable in my body, because of my short, short legs. Even when I was suffering from anorexia they wouldn’t go any slimmer.

And the worst thing is that I can’t do anything about it. If it were my boobs being too big or small I’d get a boob job, or if I didn’t like the shape of my body, I’d do something about it.

But my legs? I can’t do anything about it. Ever.

But today I remembered that what I saw at the Paralympics and I felt stupid to be so in hate with my legs and being so insecure about them. I thought to myself ‘if these guys can overcome bodily deformations and dysfunctions, then I can overcome some stupid legs’.

So I went out and took pictures of myself baring my legs for outfit pictures. I felt like crying, but I did it. I still feel like crying but also exhilarated and proud for doing this.

I will never like my legs, but at least I’m making baby steps, right? I know it will take me some more steps before I can show my legs when other people are around, until then, my legs will be safely wrapped up in (multiple!) layers of tights.

But baby steps are still steps.

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Maria xoxo

http://www.blogger.com/profile/16327415102908391799 NewLife

Well done on being brave! But you really need to know that you don't have short legs! They are in proportion to your body – they are GREAT legs. I know that just hearing it doesn't make you believe it, but I'm saying it anyway. You have GREAT legs – you don't need to hide them or be self-conscious about them. The same issues that make people cut themselves and suffer from anorexia also cause body dysmorphia. Try to believe it.Wishing you lots of love!NLxx <a href="http://www.my-changing-room.comwww.my-changing-room.com<br />
http://www.blogger.com/profile/00696597525886373172 Becky | lifestylefla

I think you're so, so brave for doing this Maria!And honestly, I didn't even think a single thing about your legs until you mentioned them (I was too busy drooling over your cute skirt!). Isn't it funny how we despise parts of our body but until we point out their 'flaws', in our minds at least, no one else even thinks to consider what we hate about them?In my mind you might be petite but your perfectly formed! Who or WHAT is perfect anyway?!
http://www.blogger.com/profile/17097218430006416046 girlinthelens

Proud of you girlie, you look amazing x
http://www.blogger.com/profile/13036828627377359414 danielleyc

Such a lovely post! I don't think there's anything wrong with your legs in the slightest! Oh and that coat is absolutely stunning! It looks so much better on you then it does on the Next website!http://www.danielleyc.com/ xx
http://www.blogger.com/profile/18082448611592623743 Saima Qamar

I have a similar thing about my legs – they are short and fat and just not in proportion with the rest of my body! But your post has inspired me to be more confident about my legs because I look at yours and I see nothing wrong with them! Thank you for doing this post, you look lovely! x
http://www.blogger.com/profile/11302169098974747443 Hollie

Love the skirt. The whole outfit together looks wonderful:)
http://www.blogger.com/profile/13151306952418034112 Lucy Elizabeth King

wow! what a great post. I feel the same about my legs. Just so you know i obviously saw the photos first and my first thought was her legs look great in this outfit!!! I alwasy look at legs first because im so concious of mine. Im now your newest follower!!!
http://www.blogger.com/profile/04529771021111744764 The Style Rawr

I hate my upper arms no matter what anyone says, so you may not believe this but seriously, your legs look great! Know that we believe this to be the truth. I am also very keen on that coat :) J x
http://www.blogger.com/profile/09943463515742105850 Milly

Well done on this post :) For what it's worth – you have amazing legs! I've been in the same place and done the same as you when I hit a pretty bad time in my life, and it's really brave of you to speak about it so openly. Very proud of you for this post.On another note though – I bet you were freezing, lady! :o x
http://www.blogger.com/profile/15110959456221326131 Leanne

Ohh liebchen I love you! So so proud of you for this post, well done. Like everyone else above has said, there isn't a damn thing wrong with your legs but I totally understand that it doesn't matter what anyone says, if you don't like them you don't like them. I'm exactly the same with my upper arms, in the summer I sweat like a pig because I can't NOT wear a cardigan or whatever because I hate my upper arms so much!So I totally get it – and seriously, well done. :-) xxx
http://www.blogger.com/profile/09151681158718066506 Dani Johanna Millwar

You look beautiful :) although I know that no amount of compliments will help change your view about your legs, as everyone has something they don't like about their bodies. This is a very brave thing to do though, and you should feel proud of yourself! Small steps forward are definitely best :) x
http://www.blogger.com/profile/06332876966084155628 Paige Joanna

This post made me cry because I an relate to it a hell of a lot. For one I'm glad and proud of you also because you are stunning and so is your figure, you should feel womanly because your legs are amazing an the shape is beautiful. Now not to compare but I feel like I have a 12 year olds body so please never feel in sexy or anything because you actually look like a women. We are all different and I'm so glad bloggers can write and post fashion pictures and embrace what we have because us normal girls are what makes me feel important enough to blog. Keep at it honey, baby steps are good to loving your legs and Loving your body. Which you should because you look great!! Paige xxxx
http://www.blogger.com/profile/10697619787089292926 Georgina

Oh Maria, let me tell you that from your blog posts and photos, I had you down as a very confident lady with super sassy style. You say you don't feel sexy, but your confidence made you sexy, and I had no idea you didn't like your legs until you said so. I think it was brave of you to post this and to admit your insecurities, but you also hid it well because you look amazing!And look on the bright side, it's too cold to go bare-legged at the moment anyway :P xx
http://www.blogger.com/profile/10697619787089292926 Georgina

Oh Maria, let me tell you that from your blog posts and photos, I had you down as a very confident lady with super sassy style. You say you don't feel sexy, but your confidence made you sexy, and I had no idea you didn't like your legs until you said so. I think it was brave of you to post this and to admit your insecurities, but you also hid it well because you look amazing!And look on the bright side, it's too cold to go bare-legged at the moment anyway :P xx
http://www.blogger.com/profile/13214406866811951779 Gailygumdrops

I looked over this post earlier on and thought then how stunning you looked..your hair, your beautiful face and yes, those legs! It's only in coming back to it and reading it properly that I realise the importance of this post for you and I HAD to leave a comment! It was very brave of you to put the pics up here for us all to see and to write to candidly about your feelings. Thankyou x
http://www.blogger.com/profile/06658056797608059375 Roxii

I have those exact boots, I love them they look so similar to JC litas!I love you style :) http://www.studdedkisses.com
http://twitter.com/HauteCocktail Carla Ortiz

Wow. What a powerful post. Always remember that we are our hardest critics and sometimes something we don't love about ourselves is actually what makes us so cute and unique in the eyes of the world. – Carla